What is a real friend?

According to what i read when i search it in google, real friend is someone you can count on in times of trouble, someone you can tell your secrets, can comfort and give advice, and tells you the truth. I accept everything that i read, but base on my experience about real friend. There is more to it. Being kids having a friend is not really a big deal if its real or not becaus you only need friend to play with, but as you got to understand things and you reach puberty friends are like one of your needs. Like same level as a family. This is the time we apply the “you can count on me because that what a friend suppose to do” but as you get older that friend will just stay on your heart and mind  why? Because you have a life, a dream to chase and a future to face. but there is new friends that you will met this is the time you can ask to yourself and doubt those people if they’re a real friend. Me? I can say that i was not also being a real friend. I let go people who give me burdens and take me for granted also those who take advantage of me.  Because they’re not also real to me. For me a real friend is there when you dont need one, who message you un expectedly and ask how you’ve been. The person who notice a simple changes of your physical appearance and tell a truthfull comment. A real friend is that person who cant stand not talking to you and accept there mistake. I once have this friend who i mistook as a real friend. I give my secret to her and show the real me. But i came to realize she is a selfish, bitch and a one of a hell hyprocrite, im not angry to her just dissapointed because what i really thought about her in the first time i know her is true but i tried to change mmy opinion about her because i thought i was wrong. But now it proven you cant train a dog in one day. She is what she is. Now i stick to those people who value people. It better to remove those people who only value thereselfs. Its better to have even only fewimageimage image real friends than to have a lots of friend but never treated you as a friend.image


Being alone

Today is my off and i’m going to kuwait city church, as I ride the public bus here in kuwait I come to think all the things that happens to me. The bad and good, sometimes I feel so empty and that I look for something that I don’t even know, I feel sad to be alone, I have no one to talk and a bit scared because i’m in this place that I consider not safe for my nationality. But I have to do this for me to be independent. I have to be strong in dealing my life here because I choose and decided to build my career in this country. At my age right now and still single im pressured because deep inside I want to have a family of my own, have kids and be responsible. But I don’t know if I can say that im unfortunate to reach this age and still single. I don’t have any regrets for all those years because I was happy and contended. That’s one thing I learn about dealing life. No regrets as long as your happy for all those things that you did and decided not to dwell with that bad things. If you feel like crying just cry, smile even if you look so stupid. Enjoy yourself just being yourself.


When winter comes

I feel excited everytime winter comes here in kuwait because I love the cool breeze and wearing think jackets, the feeling that im really living in a foreign country, but it saddens me that im far from my family and I am alone in this place. But, This is the choice that I make so I have to deal with it and I have to be strong. I wish I will leave this place and God will give me an opportunity to live somewhere I can bring my family and there will be a work opportunity and bright future for me and my family. Winter is cold but it gives me a warm feeling inside, it warms my heart. Though I dont have someone who will comfort me but God comforts me by keeping me safe and healthy. zcamera-20151106_165944