Random Thought #1

noun: happiness; plural noun: happinesses

the state of being happy.
“she struggled to find happiness in her life”
synonyms: pleasure, contentment, satisfaction, cheerfulness, merriment, gaiety, joy, joyfulness, joviality, jollity, glee, delight, good spirits, lightheartedness, well-being, enjoyment; exuberance, exhilaration, elation, ecstasy, jubilation, rapture, bliss, blissfulness, euphoria, transports of delight;
Hollywood ending
“trying to rediscover the happiness we once knew”


Happiness is the word that describe my childhood where everything is so simple and worry free. I remember that if i want something and my parents can’t buy it i just felt sad for a moment and i will just be contented of what i have. But now, I am lost of what is really the feeling of happiness. If i am happy like it feels like my heart will burst because of the overwhelming feeling, the next thing will happen is the worst opposite of happiness which is sadness. like having a work, when the paycheck arrives it feels like heaven but after a few days worries comes and boom sadness appears. Like now that i am jobless and no money at all, I am happy because i can slack all day but at the end of the day before i go to sleep i feel sad because i feel useless. I am wondering why cant we be happy all the time? why getting old makes it sadder? It is easy to spell but Hard to feel. I wish i can turn back the time.